Ramblings of a Formerly Fragile Mind

Hello, Benjamin from Brother’s Campfire here!

To my chagrin, anonymity was lost nearly soon as this blog was formed. I had a lot to say and still haven’t said it.

It is probably just as well.

It would have been disastrous to have private musings misunderstood or even worse, understood.

A lot of life has happened since August 2, 2018, when I started taking to online writing on Blogspot.

I moved to WordPress on August 25th, 2019 and blustered my way into writing a story, something I had never done or studied.

Listening to Matt tell my tale on Short Story Saturday is refreshing and a nail-biter all at the same time.

I have aged quite a bit, gained a few pounds, and lost a lot of hair in those three years but fortunately, writing has slowed the pace. It was good to get a few things off my chest spinning a tale that followed real-life somewhat.

I have gained more in these three years than I can comprehend. It has been a beautiful journey and I have made a lot of friends.

I have lost a few folks along the way as well.

Recently, I took a little over a month off from everything but the necessities. This time of prayer, reflecting, and setting boundaries was probably among the most important things I have done in almost four decades of living.

Shortly after, I wrote Resources For Men In Abusive Relationships. It took me a long time to hit publish, but I manned up.

Though I cannot publicly discuss this, my perspective on life changed in October and I have a higher or more accurate self-worth. I have discussed such things with my Beloved and my children. I l hope and pray they do not have similar pitfalls falling into abuse.

Some in my former circles continue to view me with contempt. I have elected not to seek out the favor of such people and have cut them out of my life. It has brought me a lot of joy. So has forgiving them.

Three years ago, It would have been psychologically disastrous to have misunderstood musings. Today, I am glad I am not anonymous and have my own voice.

Is this a ramble?


Does it feel good?


Author: Benjamin

Benjamin Thiel is a community leader, urban farmer, and author of The Ongoing Tale at Brothers Campfire. He might know a guy...

35 thoughts on “Ramblings of a Formerly Fragile Mind

  1. Jaskiers says:

    I’ve got a lot of respect for you.
    Please keep on writing, about anything you want.
    I’m actualy struggling about this, writing, art in general and my health.
    Seeing how you are handling difficult times is very inspiring for me.
    Signed : a fragile mind.

    1. Benjamin says:

      Thanks Friend and likewise! Keep on writing! You got this! 🀠πŸ”₯☺

  2. Ryan Callahan says:

    Amen, brother. Well said. I liked that post about men in abusive relationships. I learned a lot from that. I love all your stories too. It’s been a blessing knowing you and reading your blog. I’ve been blogging on WP since August 10, 2018, so I’m right there with you. It’s amazing all God has done the last 3 years. May we have many more years, and may the Lord use us for His glory. God bless!

  3. Thattamma C.G Menon says:

    So inspiring life story and very handsome photo also πŸŒ·πŸ‘ŒπŸ˜ŠπŸ™
    Last year and this year 2021 Cov-19 ruling our lives badly 😒
    praying for next year all will be ok, happy and safe πŸŒ·πŸ™πŸŒ·

    1. Benjamin says:

      I hope 2022 brings you great joy, Friend! COVID has been hard on all of us. Thanks for the compliment! 🀠πŸ”₯

    1. Benjamin says:

      Ha ha! I never thought about it like that! Group therapy it is! I am glad someone encouraged you! 🀠πŸ”₯πŸŽ„β„βœ¨πŸŽŠπŸŽ€πŸŽ‡πŸŽ

  4. YouLittleCharmer says:

    You can’t beat a good ramble –
    Or so I find anyway! πŸ˜‰
    You are loved and appreciated nere my friend, always πŸ–€πŸ–€πŸ–€

    1. Benjamin says:

      🀠πŸ”₯I appreciate you Charmie. I want you to know you are amazing, and I am honored to have you in my life!

  5. Michele Lee says:

    Good for you! A powerful experience to find your voice, speak (or write) your truth, and not worry about the opinion of others. πŸ“πŸ‘πŸ» Side note: I was trying to reply to your comment on my recent post, which I thought I already did, then your comment vanished. Yours and another. Weird WP glitch. My apologies.

    1. Benjamin says:

      Thank you for the encouragement Michele! Hey, no problem on the comments. Most of them don’t work well or end up in someone’s spam. I keep them simple so my heart isn’t broken! You can always contact me on my contact page if you need to!
      Stay amazing friend!🀠πŸ”₯

  6. Petra says:

    Keep going! Self worth is incredibly important and the work on your mental health and boundaries never stops (or shouldn’t)


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