On a Roll Understanding Fear

Hello, Benjamin from Brothers Campfire here!

Today, my children are excited about sushi. My parents will be treating them to large volumes of the celebrated delicacy and they are ready to indulge.

When I first got married,we got a book and a cd and learned how to make futo maki rolls. The biggest part to me is cooking the rice correctly. I believe that is where the love for sushi was instilled.

Today, yet again I will wear a taser suit and employ my acting skills. It is counter-intuitive to engage electricity aggressively, but it is a coping mechanism for me.

When I first learned the taser, I volunteered to be tased and was “lit up” twice unfairly, when it should ha e been once. What I mean by that is the instructors bullied me.

I will say thay It gave me a lot of anxiety about tasers and I don’t carry one for that reason. It is called a training scar.

Initially afraid of tasers, I have volunteered to be the bad guy over and over to face my fear. The cartridges are not electrified when training, but the weapon is. I make attempts to take the weapon away and get shocked frequency when I do so.

Stupid, maybe. But I am not as afraid of the taser as I should be now. I understand it.

Author: Benjamin

Benjamin Thiel is a husband, father, correctional professional and author of The Ongoing Tale at Brothers Campfire.

8 thoughts on “On a Roll Understanding Fear

  1. Dawn Renée says:

    Great news! I’m thinking you won’t be one to say that you lived a dull life! When my son gave to me my 1st non-lethal form of protection in the means of a stun gun, he then went off to another room. After he heard multiple “Ooww’s” traveling from the kitchen he yelled, “Mom, are you stunning yourself on different body parts?!” …I suppose I wanted to know where was most painful. He knows me. I’m thinking I would not be doing so with a taser.

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  2. Under the mask.. says:

    I live on the coast where fillets of any kind are just a sigh away (and with a rather restricted diet this decade, have often eaten packaged pollock thinly disguised as lobster or crab) so I myself haven’t tried sushi — some of my kids like it very much, though. (And Thai food!) I don’t understand, though, why you would still be a training-time Taseree, since you’re no longer as afraid of it — is there the option of it being someone else’s turn, now?

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    1. Benjamin says:

      First off, Love Sushi and Thai here!
      As for the Taser, I am a decent actor and I have a passion for helping others have a good training experience.

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  3. Omatra7 says:

    Yeah I’d be down lol

    Pretty sure would not live through that – would be lethal

    I am delicate for that type of thing lol ✌️

    Fear – funny thing huh?

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